Keir and I are struggling to stay awake right now. It is not working. He’s been getting up quite early lately. Early for me, anyway. And now he just gave in to Sleep. I think I may join him soon.
Kevin and I booked our trip last night. Got a balcony stateroom on the Carnival Conquest for December. We’re taking the train down to New Orleans and staying overnight there before we head out for the Caribbean. I think it will be fun! I’m beginning to get excited. I’ve never actually been out of the USA before, so it will be a new experience for me.
Okay time to go back to sleep for a bit.
Well, our little one has been consistently sleeping through the night. And as of the last two nights, he’s been sleeping for at least 8 hours. Tickled about this? I must say I am. We are so blessed to have such a laid back little boy. Though, he does have quite a temper at times! I love him so much, it’s amazing to see him grow and develop. I am excited to discover the person he is going to become. Every day, he becomes more inquisitive, and learns more about the world, and at the same time, he’s teaching me new things as well. It’s wonderful. We took him on his first cross-country trip two weeks ago, and he did great! Slept through all four plane rides. We did have a couple of hiccups on the part of the airline (namely their booking our three month old boy on a separate flight to Chicago while our tickets were headed to Denver), but everything was quickly and efficiently sorted out, and we were on our way in no time. I also met the family of my husband’s ex-fiancee, which..was interesting. I wasn’t sure what to expect, and I must it did bring up some immature feelings (aka the green eyed monster), but they were more than welcoming to me, and I liked them all very much.
So my 3D ultrasound is coming up this Wednesday. I am a bit excited. I am hoping the Belly Dweller will be cooperative. Belly is continuing to grow and grow. I feel absolutely ginormous. I may get around to actually taking some pictures of it at some point. I’m due on May 31st, so we’re currently at week 30. Only 10 more to go!
Kevin and I have been getting along fairly well. He still has his aspie moments, and I do not particularly enjoy them. Yesterday, he got angry and yelled at me to put the milk away (which I wasn’t done with). When I refused due to his tone, he grabbed it, and threw it out in the field, wasting approximately half a gallon. It wasn’t the worst meltdown he’s had, but it reminds me that while things have been going smoothly, we still have issues. I really hope that he will go to a personal counselor. Maybe one who is familiar with Asperger Syndrome, and has experience treating it. They also have a local support group for people with it, and I think it would do him some good to attend and meet other people with it.
My back still hurts… but on the bright side, this picture is adorable:
Well, we are buying a car today. I managed to talk him into going used finally. So now we can continue to feed ourselves, and the baby when he gets here. We are set to sign the papers today. It’s huge, so it is going to take some getting used to. I’m used to a tiny little 2 door coupe, and Kevin wanted nothing but a full sized SUV. I do think I can learn to drive it, but I do wish we’d gone for something a bit smaller and more fuel efficient. It will be quite nice for hauling things, and we will even be able to tow a small horse trailer with it when we can afford one.
Baby is becoming more and more active with each day, and I’ll have my next appointment this coming Monday. He seems to be growing steadily, and other than frequent pains and strains, we are both healthy. Definitely beginning to feel the side affects of my weight gain, though. Back, ache, and hips are all starting to feel it. And if I walk around the store for too long, my legs begin cramping up. I hope this is worth it. He’s making me totally miserable some days. He better be really smart! I know he will be, though.
In other life areas, I have not spoken to my sister since Thanksgiving. I missed her at first, and still do occasionally. But I’ve come to realize what an unhealthy influence she has been on me all these years. I won’t go into great detail on here, but I’ve grown tired of living with and being a slave to her antics. It feels amazing to be free of it. I know my mother doesn’t understand, and that it hurts her that I have ended the relationship, but I’ve spoken with my therapist about it frequently, and I know this is the best thing for me. I’m beginning to feel the pressure from my mother though, to bend and allow my sister access to us when the baby gets here. “She wants to be an aunt” she says…but she certainly doesn’t act like it. They don’t expect anything of her because they are used to bending to her will, and expect me to do the same. But I’ve had quite enough of that. I am feeling good about this change. It’s not an easy one, but I know I must stand strong.
Cutting her off from me has been one of the best things I have ever done for myself.
Well, I just got up a few minutes ago after my date with my husband last night. He surprised me by going to Equestria, which I’d been wanting to try (being the horsey person that I am). I had a great time. Better than Kevin, I’d say. Everything I ordered we both loved, and I think he was a bit jealous of the duck I had. It was all so delicious. We were both pretty sleepy so we headed home right after dinner, and more or less passed out on the couch for a little while before we went to bed.
Got up this morning, and my dog still seems to be feeling poorly. She’s had congestive heart failure for more than two years now, and I have to say, it is a miracle that she has stayed with me this long. I really feel that her extension on life has been a much needed blessing from God. I’m not the most devout person around, but when I look at her, I know I’ve been given an amazing gift. It hurts to see her fade like this. I hope that I will know the right time to make things peaceful for her, without being selfish and making her suffer.