Well, we are buying a car today. I managed to talk him into going used finally. So now we can continue to feed ourselves, and the baby when he gets here. We are set to sign the papers today. It’s huge, so it is going to take some getting used to. I’m used to a tiny little 2 door coupe, and Kevin wanted nothing but a full sized SUV. I do think I can learn to drive it, but I do wish we’d gone for something a bit smaller and more fuel efficient. It will be quite nice for hauling things, and we will even be able to tow a small horse trailer with it when we can afford one.
Baby is becoming more and more active with each day, and I’ll have my next appointment this coming Monday. He seems to be growing steadily, and other than frequent pains and strains, we are both healthy. Definitely beginning to feel the side affects of my weight gain, though. Back, ache, and hips are all starting to feel it. And if I walk around the store for too long, my legs begin cramping up. I hope this is worth it. He’s making me totally miserable some days. He better be really smart! 
I know he will be, though.
In other life areas, I have not spoken to my sister since Thanksgiving. I missed her at first, and still do occasionally. But I’ve come to realize what an unhealthy influence she has been on me all these years. I won’t go into great detail on here, but I’ve grown tired of living with and being a slave to her antics. It feels amazing to be free of it. I know my mother doesn’t understand, and that it hurts her that I have ended the relationship, but I’ve spoken with my therapist about it frequently, and I know this is the best thing for me. I’m beginning to feel the pressure from my mother though, to bend and allow my sister access to us when the baby gets here. “She wants to be an aunt” she says…but she certainly doesn’t act like it. They don’t expect anything of her because they are used to bending to her will, and expect me to do the same. But I’ve had quite enough of that. I am feeling good about this change. It’s not an easy one, but I know I must stand strong.
Cutting her off from me has been one of the best things I have ever done for myself.
