We got back last night from Spokane. I met Kevin’s parents and much of his family..it was really nice. They seemed to really like me.

He’s hinting about a proposal around valentine’s day…:)

I’m supposed to leave for Spokane today..:) I’m so excited!
My family had christmas early since I won’t be here on Saturday..
I wish Kevin was here right now..I haven’t seen him in several days..
I’m so in love with him..Paul seems to have drifted back out of the picture, fortunately..
I love them both..but I think I’m /in/ love with Kevin.

I want to die so badly right now…..
I can’t take it any more

AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:00:35 AM): why do you keep leaving voicemail?
quinichet (2:01:00 AM): because you hung up on me
quinichet (2:01:23 AM): jsut give everythign some thought…
quinichet (2:01:30 AM): you’ll see i at least haave a point
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:01:32 AM): you always have to get the last word
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:01:37 AM): an irrational point
quinichet (2:01:42 AM): no
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:01:45 AM): which is ripping your family apart
quinichet (2:01:49 AM): a completely rational point
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:01:57 AM): how is it rational?
quinichet (2:02:15 AM): he’s the one ripping up apart with his inappropriate behavior
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:02:37 AM): yes, because everything is his fault?
quinichet (2:02:48 AM): i NEVER said that
quinichet (2:02:52 AM): for the millionth time
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:02:59 AM): then please
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:03:01 AM): clarify
quinichet (2:03:24 AM): if he stopped talking to me that way
quinichet (2:03:36 AM): and apologizes for everthign he did that one night
quinichet (2:03:39 AM): and today in church
quinichet (2:03:50 AM): then i will ignore
quinichet (2:03:51 AM): him
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:03:52 AM): and what will you do?
quinichet (2:03:59 AM): but he has to stop acting this way
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:04:02 AM): yes
quinichet (2:04:04 AM): and he’s promised soooo many times
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:04:10 AM): because no one talks to you that way
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:04:17 AM): you don’t take shit from anyone
quinichet (2:04:41 AM): grow up sarah
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:04:47 AM): Why don’t you?
quinichet (2:04:53 AM): i am a grown up
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:04:59 AM): then fucking act like it
quinichet (2:05:01 AM): you’re the one being childish at the moment
quinichet (2:05:04 AM): i am
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:05:08 AM): how am I being childish?
quinichet (2:05:09 AM): fine sarah
quinichet (2:05:11 AM): marry him
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:05:13 AM): that’s right
quinichet (2:05:19 AM): spend the rest of your life with him
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:05:21 AM): you /never/ do /anything/ childish
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:05:23 AM): y\ever
quinichet (2:05:25 AM): and be completely miserable
quinichet (2:05:39 AM): and prepare to cover black eyes
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:05:40 AM): he’s not what is making me miserable
quinichet (2:05:58 AM): at least listen to anna
quinichet (2:06:07 AM): and hey, why not pray about it?
quinichet (2:06:17 AM): don’t take my word for it, talk to god
quinichet (2:06:35 AM): and soon half our church will be praying that you see him for what he really is
quinichet (2:06:47 AM): marcie barstow is already praying for that
quinichet (2:06:49 AM): and so is anna
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:07:10 AM): mom is planning to call marcie tommorow and explain what’s going on
quinichet (2:07:25 AM): what, that he acted like a jerk in church?
quinichet (2:07:39 AM): i’m sure other people saw too
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:07:47 AM): the next time you fucking act like you’re going to grab me, I’m pressing charges
quinichet (2:07:57 AM): fien
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:07:58 AM): and anytime you’re at church
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:08:01 AM): iI’m leaving
quinichet (2:08:05 AM): fine
quinichet (2:08:08 AM): good for you
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:08:21 AM): it’s not like you care about anyone but yourself
quinichet (2:08:30 AM): you no that is a lie
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:08:39 AM): I NO that’s a lie?
quinichet (2:08:42 AM): because i have told you a thousand times that i love you
quinichet (2:08:45 AM): you know
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:08:47 AM): yeah
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:08:58 AM): words are worth less than a hamster tail
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:09:04 AM): show that you love me
quinichet (2:09:10 AM): and you’re taking the word of the creeep who made you cry on your birthday
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:09:27 AM): he’s been going out of his way to make it up to me
quinichet (2:09:29 AM): over your sister who has been there for you and done stuff for you and made sacrifices for you
quinichet (2:09:44 AM): over the guy who assaulted her and talks to her like trash
quinichet (2:09:59 AM): if you stay with him you deserve what you get
quinichet (2:10:10 AM): how many people have to say that they see a problem?
quinichet (2:10:33 AM): and anna came to that conclusion all on her own
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:10:35 AM): try people that don’t just hear the story about your assault from you
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:11:03 AM): so
quinichet (2:11:07 AM): its not like it didn’t happen
quinichet (2:11:17 AM): you seem to conveniently forget that
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:11:24 AM): grabbing someone’s arm doesn’t generally qualify for assault
quinichet (2:11:30 AM): yess it does
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:11:33 AM): the charges would be thrown out
quinichet (2:11:38 AM): i’ve done my research
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:11:40 AM): show me documentation
quinichet (2:11:52 AM): steve and i talked to a cop
quinichet (2:12:29 AM): sarah i don’t care if you listen to me or not
quinichet (2:12:41 AM): i just want to prevent somethign bad from happening to you
quinichet (2:12:45 AM): because i love you
quinichet (2:13:15 AM): and i don’t want you to realize at some point down the line how blind you’ve been about the whole thing
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:13:21 AM): did the cop hear from all the witnesses and people involved?
quinichet (2:13:23 AM): when its too late
quinichet (2:13:32 AM): my story is accurate
quinichet (2:13:54 AM): you rememberr i’ve been trained to record accurate details
quinichet (2:14:02 AM): its kinda my major
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:14:06 AM): yes
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:14:14 AM): because you have a degree and I don’t
quinichet (2:14:21 AM): huh?
quinichet (2:14:33 AM): i’m not trying to rub that in your face
quinichet (2:14:43 AM): and that day i did that i was trying to be funny…..
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:14:43 AM): you’ve mentioned so many times that I didn’t stay in school, and that you have a degree
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:14:48 AM): yeah
quinichet (2:14:52 AM): but you will
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:14:52 AM): it was soooooo funny
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:15:10 AM): then why do you belittle me?
quinichet (2:15:12 AM): i’m fairly certain that by the time you are 26 you will have a degree
quinichet (2:15:18 AM): or an established career
quinichet (2:15:23 AM): i’m not now…
quinichet (2:15:31 AM): and liek i said i didn’t mean to that day
quinichet (2:15:39 AM): i didn’t mean to hurt your feelings
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:15:50 AM): you do it alot you know
quinichet (2:15:52 AM): i sowwy
quinichet (2:16:00 AM): i don’t mean to
quinichet (2:16:05 AM): and you hurt me a lot too
quinichet (2:16:10 AM): and i’m sure you don’t mean to
quinichet (2:16:18 AM): this whole thing hurts me a lot
quinichet (2:16:26 AM): i’ve shed many gallons of tears
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:16:36 AM): and I’ve shed oceans
quinichet (2:16:52 AM): 1. its hurts me that he might treat you the way he treats me
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:16:58 AM): no matter what choice I can possibly make, someone is going to be happy
quinichet (2:17:01 AM): 2. the way he treats me hurts
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:17:08 AM): I don’t handle him the way you do
quinichet (2:17:16 AM): 3. it hurts me that it tears our family apart
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:17:27 AM): I’ve given him alot of opportunities where he could have hit me
quinichet (2:17:29 AM): 4. it hurts me that my family doesn’t always stand up for me
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:17:31 AM): and he didn’t
quinichet (2:17:34 AM): like i stand up for them
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:17:36 AM): he backed off
quinichet (2:17:47 AM): yes, but sarah it doesn’t really matter how i react…
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:17:50 AM): even when I strike him in play
quinichet (2:17:58 AM): he shouldn’t do that in the FIRST PLACE
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:18:01 AM): like they say in science
quinichet (2:18:03 AM): END OF STORY
AsLaN 6 4 9 (2:18:11 AM): if there is not a response, there is no stimulus

Lots of un-lovely things going on..
my sister is convinced that Kevin is abusive..
he’s not. Neither physically or mentally. He’s not perfect. But I don’t feel threatened or afraid of him in the least..

I can’t stop thinking about the guys in my past..one in particular..
I don’t know what it is that pulls me to him..but I find it hard to say no to him.

I hope these feelings of temptation will pass..

C:

Your Beauty lies
in Nature. Down to earth, laid back and a natural
beauty. You have no need for
make-up or accessories that most others do. In fact
you most likely find them a
nuisance. You are probably a little tom-boyish in
your jeans and tees with a
great love for nature. You probably know more about
plants and animals than most
people and you’d rather spend your times outdoors
and in the sun, independent
and free. You can be a bit distant with people,
preferring the company of
animals over people, which isn’t always the best
thing. You can be kind and
sweet, but not many see that side of you as you
often have misunderstandings
with people. You are very go-with-the-flow sort of
person and usually try to
avoid fights even if it means changing your opinion
or belief. Still, you are
you look your best actually without make-up and in
casual clothes. Very few can
say that. Be proud.

Some Things
That Represent You:

Element:
Earth, Wind Animal: Horse Color:
Green, Purple, Earth Tones Song:
The Memory Of Trees by Enya Expression: Cool
Smile

Gemstone:
Emerald Mythological Creature: Fairy, Elf
Planet: Earth
Hair Color: Brown Eye Color:
Bright Green

Quote:
“Horses love me. Cowboys fear me.”

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You are a Maine Coon! You are larger than life, a
gentle giant. You are independent, but very
affectionate with your friends and family.

What breed of cat are you?
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You have the Rossetti girl look. You are the kind
of girl pre-Raphaelite painters admired; tall,
slender, and fair as a lily flower. The
pre-Raphaelite girl had dramatic beauty; long
neck, large soulful eyes, full shapely mouth
and masses of wavy hair. The pre-Raphaelites
painted girls like this, they showed them in
dramatic situations dressed as famous
characters in legends, plays and poetry. The
favourite colours of the artists were russet,
green and gold. The following artists would
have loved to paint you; Holman Hunt, John
Everett Millais, Edward Burne-Jones, William
Morris and Dante Gabriel Rossetti.

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She does look a little like me, I think…except for the nose..

Today’s my birthday….:|